Have you ever found yourself feeling like a toddler in the midst of a tantrum? I know it has happened to me more than once, usually when I haven’t eaten or when I am tired. After a restless night, it often takes a lot out of me to concentrate, and I find myself getting irritated at the smallest thing – often feeling like I’m about to burst into tears. In fact, this weekend I felt that way on Saturday – I woke up with a headache – all I wanted to eat was junk and I felt like every little thing was rubbing me the wrong way.
At first, I started to go down the spiral, almost on auto pilot. I ate some chocolate (I hadn’t had anything else to eat yet). I neglected to do my morning journaling or pull a card from my Oracle Deck – both of which have become an important part of how I start my day. Then I went to drop my pup, Quilla, for her grooming. On my there my mind was abuzz with all the things I should do in the couple of hours she was there – grocery shopping, laundry, post some pieces on Etsy – the list went on and my mind was spinning. When I got to the groomer, I had every intention of stopping at the grocery store before heading home. While I was there, it was as if a switch went off in my mind.
I decided that none of that was all that urgent. What was more important was taking care of me. So instead what I did was came home, took some medication for my headache (something I often avoid doing until I can’t bear the pain anymore), and took a nap. Then, when I woke up, I filled up the bathtub and took a book into the bathroom to relax. It was total luxury. When I headed back to the groomers to get my little one, I was in a totally different frame of mind. I still had a headache but somehow it didn’t bother me as much.
You may be wondering why I’m telling you about this little incident. I am hoping that by reading it, you will be encouraged to take time to do what you need - to pause and to rest, if that is what you need. There is healing in listening to what you need and giving it to yourself. After all, we need to take care of ourselves, and I hope this little story will encourage you to take care of yourself.